Be Grateful

Last night I heard a person talking about how they didn't spend time with their baby for a few days because they were in a bad mood, and having a bad time, and didn't want the baby to make them more angry. I couldn't even talk to this person afterwards. I don't know when I will be able to again. I'm wondering how self absorbed you have to be to announce that you couldn't spend time with your baby because it might make you ANGRY?? and you say it in front of someone that you know would give ANYTHING IN THE WORLD to have their little baby back. Are you freaking kidding me? Even if you were using it as an example...something to prove a point...can you at least be AWARE enough of who your audience is.

In the morning I have my doctor's appointment. I am scared as heck that they won't do anything to help me. Probably tell me to lose weight and then we will talk. That is my worst fear. I'm wishing I would have realized how much weight I put on after starting that Zoloft before it was too late. Now I can't freaking lose a stinkin' pound. I joined Weight Watchers and gained five pounds. I think the hormones in my body are very off.

I just want you to fix things God. I know you don't owe me an explanation for any of this....but it would be nice if you could clue me in on things once and a while.